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[03 Jun 2008|12:08am]
R.I.P. Johnny Costigan
You will be forever remembered in our hearts.
You were a beautiful person
We forgive you Johnny,
I just hope your at peace with yourself johnny boy.
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[22 Apr 2008|10:39pm]
people are so stupid.
i wish girls didn't act the way they do.

i wish i could grow up quicker.

im gunna write a book.
yea, one that motivates people to not think so stupidly.
i wish i could go into detail without offending people.
but really, grow up and stop acting ridiculous.

today was irritating.
im sick of school.
how many days left?


Things to do:

Senior Pictures
Clean my room
Clean out my car
Work harder
Save Money
Make people happy
Be a better girlfriend
Move Out
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[06 Feb 2008|11:19am]
i love waking up and to snow days.

i love that im graduating in less then 5 months.

i love life.

i love everything.

i love steve.

i love that valentines day and prom and everything in between is about to happen and i just cant wait.

i love it all.
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[29 Jan 2008|01:56pm]


:] :]
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[18 Jan 2008|01:23am]
lately i have questioned everything i have ever stood for
and now i have come to the conclusion that everything i have ever stood for is completely wrong.
i have learned endless bits of knowledge over the past month and a half.

i feel sick,
im so worried at this moment i dont even know what to do with myself.
fuck beleif.
nothings happens for a reason.
no one deserves to go through so much shit.
i envy steve for everything hes been through
and still he has turned out to be the most amazing human being i have ever met in my entire life.
he deserves the whole world that boy of mine.
i wish i could go into detail and explain his greatness,
but i could go on for hours.
i could work hard and try to be as wonderful and selfless as he is,
but somehow i know i would never match up.

i wish i had been there tonight
just to hold him and take him anywhere under the sun.
i really just want to take care of him,
i think someone needs to.
i want to be that person.
i wanna be everything that he deserves. everything.
cause he deserves the best of everything.
i want to give him the best.
i guess the best i can do right now is just make sure he knows im there.
i wish there was more i could do.
i wish i could keep him safe from all the problems in the world so he would never feel an ounce of pain.
i wish i could protect him so that his smile never leaves his face.
cause his smile is something i surley adore.

RIP papa.

so heres to steve's smile;
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[15 Jan 2008|07:30am]


im in love with this boy.
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[13 Jan 2008|08:19pm]
yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes!


gold key portfolio?
umm, fuck yess?

ahaha. i love life.
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[01 Jan 2008|11:51pm]
that was the best night of my life.

happy new year.
happy 2000 fucking eight.
6 months babbyyy.
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[30 Dec 2007|08:16pm]

well, i dont really know.
im not interested in doing anything tonight.
i think i actually want to watch movies and clean my room.
sounds like the best thing ever at this moment.

i have 5 of 8 projects done for AP
steve did so well yesutrday. god, hes amazing.
i wish i could explain to you how truly amazing he is
but there are no words to describe.
he got naked and dressed for over 85 pictures.
and he hates pictures.
but i guess he loves me.

after a month now i finally talked to zane last night.
god i dont even know how we let our realationship go this far down the drain
i know one thing,
i truly no longer have a best friend and no walking partner.
which sort of brings down my self esteem.
oddly, i would still take a bullet any day for him.
because i still will always think of him as my true best friend.

i cant seem to keep up with myself lately.
i think i really just need to grow up.
i also cant explain the way i feel.
i have never had a realtionship where i truly beleived we would be together for a while,
but with steve, hes probably the best realationship i have ever had.
i love it. i love him. im sure of it. im keeping it.

i dont have one picture today, but i have 4.

heres to change, realationships, growing up and new years resolutions;
to the new yearCollapse )
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[26 Dec 2007|11:59pm]

yeap, i love him. no doubt about it.
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[24 Dec 2007|09:39pm]

hes amazing
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[20 Dec 2007|11:38pm]

i guess we were asking for akward situations
when we decided on this realationship.

i realize i wasn't thinking of what was nice or right
when the possiblity of dating came to be

but i have spent the past 17 years thinking of everyone other then myself
i think its time that i have someone wonderful
and if that means akward situations arise.

and for the record:
i am certainly not trying to make anyone jelous or hurt anyone else.
steve is wonderful and is exactly what i need right now.

at this moment theres really nothing that can bring down,
but go ahead and try if it makes you feel better

heres to steven michael childs;
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[16 Dec 2007|12:45pm]
well, the secrets out.


im glad that everyone knows now.

i dont think i could be any happier.

steve is amazing.

im going to get him to take pictures with me soon
so expect to see some up hopefully by tomarrow ;)

so heres to relationships;
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[13 Dec 2007|03:17pm]
tomarrow tomarrow tomarrow tomarrow tomarrow.

oh shit.
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[11 Dec 2007|07:58pm]
welllll, cross your fingers and bring on the heattt.
i can take it.
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[09 Dec 2007|10:32pm]

omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg.!

:) :) :) :) :) :) :)


that covers it.
k, thanks.

oh, and heres to ... fuck, i dk...

heres to amazefulgreatfuckness :) :) :);)
(thats amazing, wonderful great and fuck combined)
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(oh and thats my family. hah)
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[07 Dec 2007|08:19pm]
i made a bet with mike,
no touching boys for 2 weeks.
he doesnt think i can do it.

hes gunna lose.
theres only one exception to our bet
and i doubt that, that exception will happen.
so im gunna win 50 bucks.

maybe. ;)
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[04 Dec 2007|09:50pm]
oh geez, bring on the new adventure.
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[02 Dec 2007|12:03am]

i have been so boy crazy lately,
boy crazy is a bit of an understatement.

but, im not gunna lie.
i seriously have a thing for this one.
i love this feeling.

heres to what tomarrow will bring;
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oh dearr.. :)
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[27 Nov 2007|09:54pm]

go ahead, challenge me.

im in it to win it.
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